050611 FEAR
Jun. 5th, 2011 09:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beethovenWhy, now it seems that I finally get up to LJ again to rant haha.
Okay, I fear of everything now.
I fear that my skills won't up to the standard of the place I am going to intern at. I fear that I can't finish my finals accordingly. I fear that my mother's health is going to crumble again. I fear of growing up. I fear that I am unable to grow up. I fear of myself who doesn't know her own passion any longer.
I fear that I am growing to be an arrogant ass. I fear of this girl, who seems to hate me very much -- while I usually don't really care about what people think of me, but to be openly hated is one another beast. I fear that I will fail and had to abort every plans I have ahead. I fear that in some of these nights, I'll just open my eyes and lost everything I love.
I fear of anyone trying to reach me yet I also fear the feeling of loneliness.
What can I do with this useless self-contradicting self?
Ah, I want to go to a picnic.
Okay, I fear of everything now.
I fear that my skills won't up to the standard of the place I am going to intern at. I fear that I can't finish my finals accordingly. I fear that my mother's health is going to crumble again. I fear of growing up. I fear that I am unable to grow up. I fear of myself who doesn't know her own passion any longer.
I fear that I am growing to be an arrogant ass. I fear of this girl, who seems to hate me very much -- while I usually don't really care about what people think of me, but to be openly hated is one another beast. I fear that I will fail and had to abort every plans I have ahead. I fear that in some of these nights, I'll just open my eyes and lost everything I love.
I fear of anyone trying to reach me yet I also fear the feeling of loneliness.
What can I do with this useless self-contradicting self?
Ah, I want to go to a picnic.
